I over U

I want
I love
I need
I hate
I like
I don't feel like

How many I's comes before you,us and we?

cuti cuti malaysia

melaka, cameron or genting?

WHAT?

P: I checked ledi. 28th not available.

F: No way, u told me confirmed!

P: I told you 28th show location confirmed not dinner.

F: No way. you told me both oso confirmed. In fact u told me yesterday

P: I did not! i don' t even remember talking to you on this matter. Yesterday i told you i'm gonna arrange for the meeting and that's it. *tiu nia sing!

F: you did! you did!

P: I wouldn't have confirmed the date if I did not get the final confirmation from em ain't it?
*kanibu cibai!!

F: toooooootttttt! * hangs up!

smile ah wai!! SMILE!!!

new hope

i have come to my final conclusion
i have made the final decision
i will not sway away from this anymore
this will be the best way to settle this
i shall have no regrets over this

my mind is made up and i'm not holding back anymore
at least i'll be happier

hold on

i knew these two months will be hard
but i didn't know it will be this freaking hard
everything doesn't go according to plan

but nothing compares to her
it breaks my heart how a cheerful little angel could be like this
i felt hapless and scared
somehow i felt she's drifting away from me
i wish i could help her but now...
looking at my own situation...i can't even help myself
i hope she'll be strong and no matter what i'll be around for her
and support her in any ways

i still remember those days, how easily i could just bring a smile to her face
but now, the sparks is missing
i wish i could still command her attention
no matter what i still love her with my heart and soul
i'll give her the best that i can afford
and vow to stay beside her to shield her from any storms

i'll never give up

lunching in office

i think this is the first time ever i lunched in office
so much to do and so little time
how tempted to just walk off and leave them in ruined
deep i'm inside i'm freaking pissed and working in agony
told myself..i'll need to hold on.
unless.....when they reaches my boiling point
that will be IT! i'll just walked out

a weekend of hell

i think hell is an understatement here
lack of proper planning and can't have full control over it
sometimes bosses will never understand
the hardship of their subordinates
anyway..can't give up now!
must earn more money
and shall see how things develop from here...

for a better future and with you in it

* and you know who you are darling!

week in review

this been one hell of a week
quite an emotional one too
after reading Ms. YY posting on FB
my heart was touched by her story
shit happened but it's how we pick ourselves up that determined who we are
luckily this time my depression mode was shorter than expected
i guess i just need to be more determined and show more guts in it

let's hope next week will be a better one!!
and i misses my BeBe very much
haven't seen her in two days

small girl gone big

small girl finally grown up
was really surprised by her decision
at the same time, i'm very happy for her
hopefully she'll find what she wants and what she long for there

the hollow man

during those days, i'm always surrounded by loads of ppl
ppl who are supportive, ppl who respected me
ppl who are sincere to me
those days, everything was warm and nice

now, i have me, myself and I
somehow i do not feel the warmth anymore
i'm alone in a battle of me against the world
despite my smile, i felt empty inside
i do not have any facial expression anymore
i no longer command the charm that was irresistible to others

sitting here staring blankly at the screen with loads of works piling up on my desk
i do not know where to find salvation
things that were supposed to cheer me up no longer cheer me up
instead it messes me up even more
i think i'm going into depression again
and god! i hate that


i tot i can count on that one person but guess i was wrong

prayers

please take me away from all my sorrows
to a place where happiness rules
and there shall be no more tears from then on

an empty vessel

a ghost from the past decided to come back for me
what you seek is never what you get
in the view of current proceedings, everything seems gloomy
a path of illumination that was once there seems to have vanished into thin air
i hope i'm not being too dramatic here but it seems i have hit a roadblock
i've always been a dedicated employee with good working attitude
i do not understand what is lacking of me to gain respect
one thing right after another
i have been a highly motivated person and to see myself in this state of mind
to tell you the truth, i'm freaking tired of life
if i have an option, i wish i have been borned into a wealthy family if not a very poor one
it draws a firm line of expectations and wants
being in the middle working class is a curse!!!
i'm worried one day i might just give up on life

why live when everyday is a bleedy struggle?
why live when what you've done today doesn't matter tomorrow?
why live when your life is just an empty vessel?

setback

my surge for a better career has taken a setback today
got a round of bollocking from boss today
and i'm freaking pissed
what seems to be mis-management from the top has been pointed to us instead
first of all, we being one of the lower hierarchy was never
given a proper briefing of our dept. mission statement
job descriptions and responsibilities was never relayed properly
despite all these lack of systematic management shown by the top
we're the scapegoat of the company's incompetencies
we being the highly motivated workforce have never failed to deliver what was expected
I'm pissed at the fact that my management skills have been put on the line
never have i been questioned on my abilities to deliver
seriously thinking of switching jobs
i shall give it a proper tot before taking any drastic actions
I'm seriously deeply and greatly depressed by all these nonsense

wa kena nombor

walao....out from 6 numbers i kena 4!
and how much did i won?
RM28!!!

i'm one step closer to become a millionaire

body kesakitan

dunno wat happened but my body freaking sakit today
must not fall sick


i'm going woot woot
two raves, fri and sat
been some time since i last rave
luckily got two passes courtesy of nikki! thanks nikki!

heartache

never hear her sobbing that hard before
my heart is shattered into pieces
why do we need to live up to others expectations?
why sometimes people can be so demanding and mean?
everyone have their own path and destiny
and you respect them for that

if you can't see beyond urself then you do not dictate the life of others
you do not have the right to do so

love is about accepting someone for they ARE
not converting them into your own liking


imagine a world where everyone is standardized...it ain't that fun anymore ain't it?

life's a box of chocolate

watched forrest gump with her last night
oh boy..how much i liked the movie
it reminds me again of how life can be beautiful
if we're living it right

live can be as simple as you want
how complicated can things be?
it's the wild dreams that we pursue in a wild goose chase
that makes our life miserable

Ours..and now mine

kept pestering her to check out my blog
wanted her to read the entry on 5/4/09
somehow it doesn't make any sense now
*felt like a chick man...trying to gain her attention.wakakaka
not gonna do that anymore!!

well well...guess it will be better if she doesn't have access to this
this will serve as my personal diary
a personal journal of my life
a journal just for my own eyes

lovely day...lovely day...lovely day

When I wake up in the morning
love
and the sun light hurts my eyes

And something without worning
love
bears heavy on my mind.
Then I look at you and the world's alright with me

Just one look at you and I know it's gonna be -

A lovely day - lovely day
lovely day
lovely day
lovely day

ermm..yes no maybe

mood swings are getting worse everyday
it's like i'm ovulating every hour
challenging times ahead and i can't bear with anymore criticism
i need solutions and encouragements
i've made up my mind

seeking my inner peace of mind

i'm officially missing her

It's been days since i last saw her
and i will be away for the next two days
and MY GOD...i misses her so much!
so much to tell her !!

this call for a proper celebration of wine and dinner
on fri and sat!

alright! it's decided then! we shall have proper dinner on fri or sat
it's been a while since we last do that

equations of life

money+career+car+house+superhot gf=good life

my life at this moment

money : X
career : X
car : on the way*but still 2nd hand
house : X
super hot gf : oh yes!

guess i still have a long way to go...but i'll never GIVE UP!

down and out in kuala lumpur

i'm fucking pissed with my car
i'll never ever buy a national car anymore!!!!
nuff said!

you how it feels like to drive around in a piece of crap?
to have the car giving up on you when it matters the most!
damn kaw kanasai man!
i'm so gettin a new car!!!

OMFG!! I'M FUCKING PISSED!!!

amazing

Had a great day at work and everything seems to be moving along quite well till...

P: Hello, are you feeling better?

B: What's wrong with you? I'm trying to sleep and send what sms?? %#^^%&^*@

P: Ok Bye..

It's amazing how a short and brief tele-conversation just freaking ruined your day
and why does she has such power over me
sometimes i wonder have i ever did that to anyone
I apologized sincerely from the bottom of my heart
i never meant to do that and i know how it felt now....

taboo my boo

guess i uttered something really stupid last night
spurring her into tears
sorry, i didn't mean that...
i never ever meant that in anyway...
too much on my mind and i wasn't thinking straight
i'll nvr do that again...

get well soon my love!!

Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today

For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way. Something to be got through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.

Be happy while you're living, for you're a long time dead

obituary

a call from her and i went stunned
speechless for a good few seconds
it took me quite a while to regain my composure
deep inside i just went SHIT! wat happened?
i think she handled it quite well

i guess it didn't really strucked her till the moment she eases down
i was away and i couldn't comfort her
i shud have stayed a lil while
what a shit head!
breaks my heart to hear her sobbing


"What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us"

"What the heart has once known, it shall never forget"

Rest in peace my friend, i may not have met you but i felt the grief.
I shall pray for you and your family everyday
till the day we meet again

sam! i scared....

...she claimed i looked like him

i always tot i looked like them

i guess i'll always looked like this to her

border collie and a lamb

she nvr failed to amazed me
all along, she knew it
and like a torch it leads the way

a hard fought battle

gone are the days where gloominess roams me
last night was a night of illumination
new path are forged and a vow to keep
new breathe of life enters me

i'm coming back faster, better, stronger

UP UP AND AWAY

sky high!

My birthday and we drove up to genting...without any reservations and kept assuring
her...can get one!! now not peak season mar!!

like a seasoned pro...went up to the highland hotel reception....

sorry sir...all of our rooms are fully booked...IS THE SCHOOL HOLIDAY SEASON!!

fuck! ...kena taruk kaw kaw from her!! diu mo? lose face man..

after a phone call to bukit tinggi, we decided to head over there instead....

my sexy mama!! woot woot


on the way down from genting...saw awana and tot..maybe we shud give it a try!

and guess wat? they have a room for us! woo hoooo

got us a room on the tower hotel and the view!! BREATH TAKING!!!

my constipated look!

breakfast...a great start to the day


japanese garden

after a night in awana..we came back to town and my god!! the noise, the pollutions
arrggghhh!

such a relaxing trip..away from everything

for dinner we headed down to Plaza Da Mas for some Ma Lat For Wo!!

we don't even have time to talk to each other....

a short one but a rewarding one...came back feeling fresh and all pumped up!

never ever

never have i thought to behold such beauty

and a mate who i can share my everything

I vow to make her the happiest thing on earth

Sunshine, Sea Breeze and Good food

Our first ever trip together


It came quite unexpectedly, she was needed in up North for a training program and she'll be traveling alone there...Being a caring and sensitive BF..i decided to apply for leave and accompany her there...by accompanying means driving her up there!


Check out the amount of bags...luckily i'm around to help her with it

like very cute like that...


I like this pic alot..i think i looked good in it..haha

Upon reaching, we checked in to this hotel in Autocity and immediately after that we took off
in search of some CKT action and stumbled upon one at Jalan Burma. CKT, Popiah,
Chicken wing and HO jien!! yum yum..and of coz two icy cold ones!!

Yum!!

After a hearty meal at Jalan Burma, we drove around penang island in search for more foods
Oh yeah..both of us are food lovers!! and we can really eat too!!

got ourselves to gurney drive and ordered tao fu fa...and OMFG!!! it was awesome!
i almost screamed and ran around gurney drive waving my hands in the air!!
never expected it to be that gooooood!! tao fu fa is not even in the penangites food to find list

and she had the last spoonful!! ...haih

after that went for a walk along gurney drive...sea breeze!

chendol!! yum-yum

seafood lunch at gurney drive!! the food was fantastic...especially the steamed fish!

aww......



lovely aight


wat meant to be a business trip turn out to be one of my most memorable trip to penang.
it just felt great to hang out with her. it's amazing how we compliment each other
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